Voiceless Me!

Date- 18th March 2010, I underwent an operation for my throat due to swelling detected in my vocal cords.

What next?? To my surprise, my doctor/speech therapist asked me to be on voice rest for a month or two. From a chirpy, hyper active me- I had to be the Voiceless Me

Nevertheless, fighting spirit that I have inherited from my Buddhist practice helped me go through the voiceless month swiftly. There were times when I felt suffocated, wanting to talk,  just talk. There were times when out of frustration I felt like screaming, but not a word came out of my mouth.

At the same time a very interesting learning process was going on in my life. Not allowed to speak, sitting in a corner, observing people around me lose their cool, screaming, getting irritated was strangely fun. As voiceless days passed by, I became a much calmer person with a smiling face. It gave me ample amount of opportunities to observe. Observe the minds and behavior of people around me. It definitely helped me become a good listener.

All these days I quietly observed the working of my own mind. “Your mind is a skilled painter” It was interesting to observe the creations of my mind. How it taught me to evoke many feelings in a good and bad way. I silently conversed with my mind, stopping or following the instructions given by it to me.

As I have read “Every opportunity or obstacle is a stepping stone to success”

Sometime’s sitting quietly I wondered how not having a voice would help me gain success. But now as I look back, I feel I have become a person with immense patience, calmness, a good listener and a very strong control on my mind.

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